Todd Lisa and Aiden

In the hopes that our story will encourage those going through this process, I want to share our road to adoption with you.  After deciding to quit the infertility specialist, I asked God what I was supposed to do to handle the feeling of loss that I had.  I turned on the radio to an ad for adoption and just felt like God was leading us in that direction.  After my husband was miraculously on board, we went to Spirit of Faith Adoptions.  Even though we were going through the process that would bring us a child, I still felt like God would not really give us what we wanted.  I had lot of doubts because it was easier for me to mentally prepare for no children in our future and thus not be let down versus hope for a child and have my hopes crushed, which I felt like I couldn't take.  As it was, I had a hard enough time going to work functions where co-workers who had starting trying had multiple kids by now, and church where every other week a couple in our Sunday School class was sharing that they were expecting.  I kept asking God, “Why not me?  What’s wrong with me?”  And I went through the ups and downs of trying to be open to hope and blocking it totally from my mind.  God was however, working on me to get rid of the way that I was trying to cope with disappointment.  It’s true that hope deferred makes the heart sick.  God should be my hope and my salvation for any trouble I find myself in.  So, it took some time, but God conveyed to me that He wanted me to give Him my sick heart and surrender my fear of never having a child.  If He could carry a cross and bear the burden of the weight of my sins, then he could surely carry my hurts as well.  After I finally said that I would give God my fears, I chose to dare to hope for a child and we got a call 3 days later that a birth mother had picked us.   Our son was born exactly 9 months to the day after our home study was approved.  The birth mother was never in doubt about her decision to pick us.  How’s that for blessed assurance!?  This has shown me that God has a special plan for all of us and that if we really trust in Him, He can and will get us through. 

"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.  Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.  For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."  Mt 11:28-30

In Christ,
Lisa and Todd and Aiden

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